love.like.winter

i was worried about you.
despite the way you pulled the hope from me
like candy floss from a string,
why do you get to upset when people care?
are you really as much of a waste of time as people say you are?
because i've refused to believe them.
I'VE REFUSED TO BELIEVE THEM.
i throw all of your broken promises away
and look boldly past your faults.
are you sure that this is what you want?
to push me away like this?
the snow is falling fast
and you are burying yourself even faster.
if you want me gone...
i'll go.
just tell me.
i've tried to be good to you.
i've tried to be everything that everyone else wasn't.
i wanted to be your best friend.
your lover.
if anything---an incentive for you to take care of yourself.
i may as well have been a martyr.
you're killing me, you know.
the flakes outside are tinted pink
with broken-heart-liquid
and what feels like the last time we'll talk.

-a-